What do most people fantasize about? Winning the lottery? Do women really spend as much time thinking about their wedding as television makes it seem? Dating a supermodel? I don't know.
I certainly still dream about winning the lottery. And the supermodel thing.... And the wedding thing. But my main dream is this: I wish I wasn't lazy. Don't get me wrong, I love being lazy on some level. I sure don't want to be ambitious or do a bunch of school work for some meaningless grade. Or any of the crap like that.
But I spend most of my life just sitting around doing nothing. And if nothing gets in the way I'd spend pretty much all my time sitting in my room watching tv and "surfing the internet," which I do in a more systematic and serious manner than anyone I've ever met. Every once in a while I'll actually get into something and get excited and do something for a while. but then that dies off after two or three days. I wish I could actually do stuff regularly and be a good person. maybe get some exercise, do some reading, maybe actually do some school work when it's interesting. I wish I could even write a simple 3 paragraphs without stopping to clip my toenails... but whatever it needed to be done.
The thing is, I still think of the future as if one of these days I'm going to snap out of it and be energetic and useful and it'll be great.
I think I'll learn Esperanto and start running 3 miles a day and maybe even figure out how to do tai chi. Or maybe I'll just watch a few more episodes of Scrubs and read about those things on wikipedia.
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what about the nobel prize
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